Weekends...

[Jason_and_me]

I don’t know if anyone else feels this, but weekends absolutely wreck me. Not because anything bad happens, but because everything stops.

During the week, I’ve got some kind of structure to hang onto; appointments, tasks, admin, responsibilities, all the stuff that forces me to keep moving. It’s not fun, but at least it keeps me going.

When the weekend hits? The whole world goes quiet… and suddenly I’m stuck alone with my own mind.

For people dealing with long-term trauma stuff like dissociation, flashbacks, internal conflict, loneliness, or just feeling unsafe inside your own skin, weekends aren’t “rest.” They’re a void. They’re too silent, too empty, too unstructured.

The stuff that doesn’t stop on weekends:

• the pain

• the trauma reactions

• the internal noise

• the stress

• the emotional hangover from the week

The stuff that does stop on weekends:

• clinics

• therapists

• support lines with decent waiting times

• admin pathways

• any sense of external structure

It leaves you sitting there with nothing but your brain, your body, and your symptoms. And honestly? That’s when things get the hardest. During the week, I’m fighting systems, tasks, and responsibilities. On the weekend, I end up fighting myself.
And I can’t fight myself and the rest of the world at the same time.

Just wanted to put this out there in case someone else struggles with weekends too. 

If anyone has ways they cope with weekends better, I’d actually love to hear them.

[tyme]

You don’t say! @Jason_and_me I totally get that. I remember all my hospital emergencies were during weekends because as you said, everything stops. Over time, what helped me what to plan things on weekends so I continued to have a rigid routine. Even till today, routine is so important for me and keeps me well.

Thoughts?