possible mixed episode

[Eden1919]

i really dont know what is going on but i feel very all over the place and the other day i was sure i was getting depressed again but this doesnt feel like normal depression for me like i feel depressed but like with a lot of energy and like i am hardly sleeping sometimes less than 1 hour a night for the past week and i should be a lot more tired and idk something just feels off but idk if i am even barking up the right tree or not like this might be something else completely i really dont know what to think i just feel like both up and down at the same time and it feels really weird idk i just feel so weird and i keep wanting to cry but then i feel like idk and i have been really irritable and stuff and i just idk what is wrong. what have other peoples mixed episodes felt like?

[TunedIn]

Hi @Eden1919 

It sounds really difficult for you right now where it feels like what you're going through is more than depression - i.e. you have a lot of energy, are hardly sleeping, and feel like crying. It makes sense this feels different and you're questioning whether something is off. It's great to see you reaching out and wanting to hear others experiences - you are not alone 🌿

Do you have any one-to-one supports you can reach out to? 

TunedIn 🦋

[Dimity]

Hello @Eden1919 I've had what could be mixed episodes. Very keyed up and unable to sleep but not a "good" or "high" feeling like mania, in fact pretty dark. Sometimes with flashbacks. And being aware of increasing paranoia,  and starting to imagine things. If it gets worse having what are probably vivid dreams before losing it. 

Can you talk to your prescriber? I've found that making small adjustments and getting some sleep and trying to keep going with daily routines can help a lot so I don't have a relapse. 

I suggested your prescriber rather than your psychologist or support worker as that's what's helped me most when I'm at that stage.

[Eden1919]

@TunedIn  i dont really have anyone i can contact in the next few days 

@Dimity  I dont see the psychiatrist until the end of december so i cant really ask them any time soon. 

i still feel weird today idk how to describe it but yeah i just dont feel right. 

[EternalFlower]

hi @Eden1919 just wanted to check you're okay

i remember chatting to u about public mental health etc - not sure if you're in public like me but know its very delayed to see a psych at times and quite the struggle 😞

can u email them or call the catt or not at that stage?

here for u. if u wanna talk happy to chat

[Eden1919]

hi @EternalFlower  yeah i am in the public system at the moment i am not at the stage to call catt and wouldnt want too as i have had so many bad experiences with them unfortunately but anyway i am just trying to manage things at home for now i just wish i could figure out what was going on then it might help me figure out how to deal with it but anyway i will keep trying. have you been well?