I'm in a nest

[outlander]

Hearing you @CheerBear walking the winding road with you. Hugs and ❤

[Mazarita]

Love and hugs to you, @CheerBear. Hearing the hurtful hard stuff around you at the moment. Hoping the sads pass very quickly too.

[Maggie]

@CheerBear This is a twisting up and down journey you are on, I wish it was different, but it's not, and it sucks big time. I know the falling getting up falling getting up and and. It's so very very hard, and at times @CheerBear i stay in my pit because it's the only safe place I know. Yes uncomfortable, yes dark, but I don't have the energy. But time goes on and a little light, oh how good that feels, and how far that tiny light shines.

Im listening with an open heart, hurting right beside you. You have LF, I have Furbaby, that's why we keep walking. Rest is good if you can. Take care.☔️☔️🌺🌺

[Faith-and-Hope]

“I try to remind myself that things like this need to leave out the parts that would say that, despite all of the horrible, there's great too.”

Mind if I gently say this for you @CheerBear ..... ?

There is great in mine too, you know ..... and things greatly achieved ..... and these things count, they matter, you matter ...... your little fish are there to say that you matter in ways that are irrelevant to NDIS,  because NDIS is a machine, a system ..... it’s not connected people in relevant relationships, it’s a means to an end ..... a sort-of up-turned exam where wrong is right and right is wrong ..... through the looking glass stuff ..... but that is a machine that can help you live your real-life life with LF.

I will be stepping up to NDIS for my D2.  Just haven’t got there yet.  And on paper she will seem much less than she is, because paper doesnt contain heart and soul that can’t be documented and measured, but the same machine will serve her too .....

Hugs and heart-feels, and seeing the great amongst the not-so-great, because the great can’t be hidden from eyes that can see it .... hearts that can feel it ..... and care that lives it .....

❤️❤️❤️

[CheerBear]

A very teary thank you, heaps. Hearing yours words and feeling the support, and appreciating it lots.

I'm really tired in lots of ways and I've found things very hard to manage this afternoon because of it. Afternoons and evenings like this show me how much I needed that break. I think it could have really helped me. But there's no point in sitting with that one for too long either, because it's pretty pointless to think about now.

I need to sleep it off (starting in a few hours if I can stay awake or otherwise tomorrow will start for me before today is over :face_with_rolling_eyes:), and try again tomorrow I think.

Thank you again ❤

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hugs @CheerBear .... 🌈💕

[Maggie]

@CheerBear Before LF wake up. Here's morning coffee in bed. 💕💜

[CheerBear]

And it's warming up my toes too 😊 Thank you @Maggie. I couldn't reply properly last night to say how much I understand staying in your pit. And how much that little light feels so good when it's so dark, I agree.

I went looking for some mug hugs doing something aside from the two photos I can find of them on Google but I couldn't find any more. I found these for you though and they made me smile and think of you. 

With you also Maggie. 

You gave me tears, in a really nice way last night @Faith-and-Hope. I need this support as it is a big part of why I am able to keep on going and to stay away from people making decisions for me. It will help me pick apart the bigness of it all too, so it is more manageable. It really matters to me that this goes through, and things that matter are often tricky (grrr to everything seeming to matter though). Thank you for seeing that it's an upturned exam, and for seeing good too ❤. I really hope the process with D2 is smooth going for you both. There's a lot of difficult about it

I didn't sleep well again last night. I seem to be OK with sleep for the first small part of it, and then something goes amiss. It's either nightmares, panic, getting tangled in my blankets, or just finding myself wide awake. I woke feeling pretty miserable but was lucky to find company in the little hours, which helped lots (❤ @Mazarita). Today is going to be a quiet day. I'll do the little housework I have before the kids go to school and then spend the rest of the day with some furballs. I'll submit my application with my MH worker today too then I can put it out of mind. Appointments with my MH worker often help, plus she won't mind me being a teary mess in my pjs with my blanket cape on if that's how I am.

Hope the day starts well for anyone who catches this. Thank you for the space to share 💛 

[Maggie]

@CheerBear Love the coffee mugs. I found some you might like, or not. Sending thoughts your way. 💕🙃💕

[CheerBear]

I love them @Maggie 😊 They're so snuggly looking. Thank you.

Hope there's some good in your day today ❤