Just checking in.

[Zoe7]

You have done some massive soul searching and reached some huge conclusions for yourself the last few days @Teej and that can be tiring in itself. Take care of you Hon - get some sleep tonight (hopefully) and tackle tomorrow when it gets here. Hugs and much love 

[CheerBear]

Just checking in. I'm not feeling so great today. I didn't have a very good night with stuff running through my head after a group I went to yesterday. I was triggered but not in the flashback kind of way, just in a memories and thoughts of past yuck times way. I can deal with it when it happens better than I have in the past, but it is the lack of sleep, the tiredness and the fuzzy brain cloud that happens after it all that's tricky. I'm really tired.

I had lots on this morning with my school gig and I pushed through it all. I then went to complete some c-link paperwork with an office person for after school care so I could do my volunteer gig, and I broke. C-link is such a stress that it's too much for me to deal with at the best of times but was way, way beyond me today. Out of nowhere and looking like a total banana, I froze then cried. I flipped out thinking all kinds of catastrophic stuff. I've left it with having to pay full fees for them to go to aftercare because I am too much of a snowflake to go through the process of getting child care subsidy 😔

I'm trying so hard to push myself and for the most part I think I am OK. Then something like that and like group yesterday smashes me with the reality that I'm only OK to a certain point before it becomes too much and I crack.

I so badly need a mental health worker back and I hate that the NDIS has taken that. My head is full of things I need to do, organise, get to, sort out etc. I'm containing it but it don't know if it is sustainable. I need someone I can sit with and unpack it all with who can help me to break it down into something more manageable. I need someone I can call and say "I'm having a bad day. Can you help me get back on track?" 🙁

[outlander]

@CheerBear

[MDT]

hey @CheerBear

Just wanted to say I hear you. I'm hoping that SANE Chat comes back online soon because I've had enough of feeling the way I am and need to chat with someone too.

I'm empathetic to what you described there too - I want to push myself and for the most part i have and yet... still here...

anyway. Take care friend

gday also to @outlander

[CheerBear]

@outlander ❤

Thanks for getting it and for hearing me @MDT. Sorry you're feeling it too. It's super annoying to get only get so far and then hit a wobbly bit.

Hope chat helps if you connect. Take care too.

[Teej]

I totally get where you are at @CheerBear . It’s ok when it falls over for a bit. It’s the getting back up that is important. You’ve proven over and over again through some massive fall overs (new word) that you get back up, and you nearly always rise stronger and wiser and know yourself better. Just a reminder that you’ve got this when you can recover your energy and ride that dinosaur again (which I noted and adored seeing it back up .....and dont you dare change it because of the past 36 hours 😘) 

im not supposed to be here but just stopped for a cuppa. I need to get back to what I was doing and hope that you can be kind to you.

💜🤗 

[MDT]

Wanted to share this with you @CheerBear

Listening to it can be cathartic at times

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLIpWLLPnu4

[CheerBear]

I had to scratch my head a bit there wondering what you meant getting back on my dinosaur @Teej. Then remembered I'd changed my profile pic lol. Face palm. I need sleep!

Thank you for making me smile 🙂

I have 10 minutes to get myself up and out of my feeling-sad-and-sorry-for-myself puddle so I can pick up Big who returns from camp this afternoon. They've been giving me a great hint of teen years to come lately. Fun times 😏

Hope whatever you're doing is going OK. Thanks heaps Teej ❤

Thanks also @MDT. I will have a look later. Maybe when I need a break from the circus that I'm sure will be our house in the next hour 😉. Hope your afternoon is a bit easier on you than your morning sounds.

[MDT]

Thanks @CheerBear

Take care mate 🙂

[Zoe7]

That is all so hard for you @CheerBear The lack of sleep is like a rollercoaster the next day - there are times when you can function for a little while but them it is those smaller things that can break you ...and you broke when you didn't think you would but that is okay CB - you can only deal with so much sometimes ...and you are dealing with a lot. The 'stuff' yesterday at the group has certainly had a big effect on you and I actually find it a failure in the system that there is no follow up after such groups. I am sure you are not the only one that has things come up as a result of the group and there really should be someone you can talk to about that. Did you manage to get an earlier appointment so you can go through some of that? Please use this space to talk about what you need to if that will help you too CB.

It certainly would not be easy for you not having that person you can call on to help you out sometimes and to just give you a break from even the day to day stuff. Can you talk to well one about any of this or is that too hard to do?

Sitting with you and sending you huge, fluffy, rainbow covered hugs