Just checking in.

[Zoe7]

35 minutes now @Faith-and-Hope 

Come on @Former-Member please clear the image - this little flutterby is super impatient this morning 

[Teej]

I can see it now...3 pages back, we must all be in fine form 😜 @Zoe7 , @Faith-and-Hope 

[Zoe7]

woo hoo I can see it too - yea! @Teej @Faith-and-Hope 

Thank you @Former-Member 

It is gorgeous @Faith-and-Hope Bigger than I expected it to be but just you Hon 

I have a butterfly toe ring I always wear ...and of course my F&H necklace - the little things that mean so much to me 

[Teej]

just found this @Sans911 . It amused me 😄

[CheerBear]

@Teej your pep talk made me smile ❤

Thank you so much for getting it (had a feeling you would too). It's a strange feeling to know you're so lucky to have what many don't (a loving family) but it not being enough. It's very conflicting. Maybe the role of mum/daughter/sister etc is so much about others, that wanting more and wanting something for ourselves is normal. It feels weird though. In my dark and twisty moments the want for more and the feeling of guilt about that really hurts.

I know my kids will want me to have more one day, but I think they're still at the ages where they're perfectly happy with my life revolving around them. My deep, secret confession - I am extremely frustrated with that. Not at all with them as what they do is very normal, but about life in general being that way. Now as much as ever I resent that life has played out in a way that it all falls on me. Our situation has meant they have needed a lot from me and I need that to lessen a bit as safety and stability have now been created for them. I had a family support worker out on Friday and it pained me but I fessed up to needing some support to work out how to do it. I'm super difficult to work with as I am about as guarded as it gets with my family (thanks child protection and some very non trauma informed family services 😏), but I tried. Right now it feels like another thing I have added and another thing to juggle, but I think it went well enough and it might help. We'll see 🤞

I've missed a bit around the forum over the last few days, but I hope things are OK enough in your world. Often thinking of you ❤

I'm going to push reply now knowing I've missed a heap of chatter here so this will be way out of place, but oh well 😉

Big hugs for you @Sans911, who I've also been thinking of too ❤

Heading out to the supermarket now (shudder) and to do a whole heap of annoying Sunday things.

Have a good morning all x

[Sans911]

How about the headings @Faith-and-Hope? That's probably easier, and will spur me on.

[Sans911]

Noooo, I don't have time to wait!!! @Teej. I will go have a shower to wake up, clean up the dishes & hopefully it's cleared by then.

[Zoe7]

I think it is very natural for you to want more than you have right now @CheerBear Life certainly took a rather dramatic turn for you and that was definitely not somethin you envisaged or deserved - so all the hopes and dreams you had for both you and your LF were (are) very much put on hold. That does not mean that you cannot get bsck to those hopes and dreams - it just may take a bit longer to get there. Your LF have been your priority but now things a re a bit more stable for you all and you have more support then it is maybe time for you to begin to think about doing some of those things for yourself. Your LF are growing up and whilst there are still going to be struggles for them (especially middle) they also would want what is best for you. You have set that examole by caring so well for your LF and I have no doubt they eant to see their mum happy in what she is doing too. The time may not be right just yet but everything you have been doing lately- and the amazing way you have dealt with everything - must give you some confidence that although life is still tough it is possible to get through and strive for something better for yourself as well. This volunteering gig is certainly one of those good things - and you got that because of who you are and what you can do  so that is cause for celebration. ....next may be revisiting your studies or whatever it is you want to do - you have the ability to do whatever it is you choose to do CB 

[Teej]

@Sans911  The pic is really not worth the wait.....but if it helps to get you going in an ok way then it’s ok. I know you can do this. Right by your side. 

@CheerBear  will chat later maybe. I have to get some things done too. 

[Zoe7]

Headings sound like a good idea @Sans911 @Faith-and-Hope We can all tick them off as you go through them.