Just checking in.

[CheerBear]

Thank you heaps @Zoe7. I feel your presence and really appreciate it. Trying to keep up with how things are for you also and really sorry to hear it sounds like the work situation isn't working out as well as you deserve/would like/had planned. Big ❤

[Teej]

So sorry for all that extra pressure and mess around @CheerBear. I can totally see how melted snowflake banana head would have happened 😔. You did good though to do what you needed. 👍🏻

Im doing strangely ok but waiting for all hell to break loose and my melted snowflake banana head to take over. My house is a very tense place at the moment with fighting between son and girlfriend and I suck at this. My brain goes into high alert and i need to change that. In the next 72 hours it could escalate 😬. But it’s a learning curve and I’m going to try some strategies to see if I can manage it better. Bit of a meh whinge really. 

I had psych appointment yesterday that went better than expected and I have even been thinking a little forward about the future today without freaking out. Will be around for the night mostly I think should you need a distraction. 

[Zoe7]

I see you regularly under the support button too CB and you know it is like little rainbows hitting my heart - stay strong @CheerBear - you have so much courage and so much strength and inspire so many of us daily by just being you - would not have you any other way Hon 💛🧡💚💙💜

[Shaz51]

hugs @CheerBear

[Teej]

Posted too soon. @CheerBear 

found this in one of my albums. Will be thinking of you all tomorrow too. 💜🤗

[CheerBear]

Thanks @Teej. This is very yuck feeling. I think the yes/no/maybe/who knows was just too much again. Giant meltdowns in public places rarely feel awesome after, which is where I'm at now 😏😑

Is the tension an increase in study stress and pressure? I can imagine the tricky that comes with the fighting. Sometimes it feels like I'm living in a pressure cooker here and they're much smaller people. Any time for a garden escape? I'm hiding from people under the lemon tree at the moment👍😁

Glad you had a good psych appointment yesterday and that future thinking isn't freak out causing at the moment. Anything you can/would like to share that you've been thinking?

@Zoe7 thank you. You do spread feel goods so well 🤗💗💗

[Teej]

Under the lemon tree sounds lovely @CheerBear. I’m hoping it is calming. It is horrible here today, gusty, dusty north winds and hot. Not my fave. I’m more of a winter girl I think. 

The intensity is of the major kind that just for now I can’t say but is break up potential I think. I’ve not lived through a break up with any of mine yet. If it happens it will be so heartbreaking all around. I’m hoping it won’t get to that though. They are out at the moment. 

My thinking is all kind of mixed up but in an ok kind of way too. Today for the first time in a long time I thought about study of some kind again. I also thought about maybe doing some computer upskilling again as I’d need to refresh lots of the simple things again that I could get overwhelmed with easily like Microsoft office and learn the new features as it’s been 5 yrs since I was really familiar with it. 

Ive been thinking about (with lots of hope) the things I want to work with the psychiatrist on. She has booked me in for the next 5 visits fortnightly which feels ok for now. 

I think ive been feeling more proactive about things I just assumed I had to accept and would never cope with thanks to a helpful conversation with the help line the other day. Mostly this is about trying to manage feeling overwhelmed by absorbing others stuff better than just accepting it and running away. 

So that hat is kind of me but I’ve been pretty reflective lately. I so hope you get to find some kind of normal again sooner but know that is unlikely for just now. Your time will come again, I know it will.

Wishing this was in my garden today

[CheerBear]

Aww I hope it doesnt get to break up either for you all too @Teej. My mum heart hurts when my kids hearts hurt 🙁

Study, or even being in a place to think about studying, is great. Also great idea with something like computer upskilling. Proactive and managing those feelings sounds fab Teej 😊 Love hearing of your little (and big) wins ❤

It's hot and windy here too. Hoping we might get some storm action over the next day or so.

Such a pretty picture. Little birds of all kinds are loving our vegetable garden lately. It's doing my head in! I've just watered it and found some more snapdragons in different colours starting to flower. They look so lovely 😊

I better get going as I have to think of something for dinner. I'm kicking myself I didn't do that one sooner as now I'm this tired it feels way harder than it would have if I'd been more organised. Yay everything about life right now 😏😉

Thanks for the company, care and for being you ❤😘

[Faith-and-Hope]

Just wow @CheerBear ...... 😔❤️❤️❤️

Sitting with you, and tomorrow too ......

Hugs x 100’s & 1000’s .....

[CheerBear]

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope ❤