Just checking in.

[Teej]

Take good care of you @CheerBear 💜🤗

think I might head off too @Faith-and-Hope. Not sure if it’s to sleep or get up yet. 

💜🤗

[Faith-and-Hope]

I think any of us would be a kangaroo in your situation @CheerBear, and I know I have been at times when my kids were under fire for different reasons ..... I think there is definitely a place for rescue parenting.

Have an as-good-as-it-gets -at-the-moment-day both of you .... @CheerBear @Teej

💜🧡

[Teej]

Just wanted to pop back in @CheerBear as something didn’t quite settle in my brain......as is often the case. I don’t think you are a kangaroo in the sense you said at all. Perhaps I see you differently. I think definitely dolphin knowing what I know but also kangaroo. Joeys jump in and out of their mothers pouch mostly by their choice until they are strong enough to join the mob which is what I think a mothers purpose is. My friend raised one by hand after the mother died. One day after she was fully grown and strong enough she took off with the local mob in her area and was never seen again. I think it’s innate that most beings become independent. It’s those whose parents don’t let them do anything and wrap them up in cotton wool that struggle. Thinking about a certain said broken arm recently and how you dealt with that I don’t think you have anything to worry about. If I was to look at my best friends I think we had a rhino, a kangaroo and a dolphin and now they are grown up they are all achieving and living about the same. They are all thriving. I also know of your decision making process for the next schooling stage and if that doesn’t flip out the water and make dolphin noises I don’t know what does 😘Yours will too......and because I’m thinking they’ve got your gritty determination and can do attitude. Not sure if you’ve had feedback whilst day to day arrangements are different but I can assure you you are doing the most amazing job. 

Sending some strength and gritty determination to get through this really rough patch.

💜🤗

and of course purple flowers because sometimes they are a bit comforting. 

****Guess what my albums are not working properly too, this was not what I was looking for. When I go to my profile and my albums I have 78 photos in the flower album but when I went to upload to you I could only access 24 and a couple were from other albums. 🤔. Is this the issue you were having? I’m heading out for a while now and hope your day is going better. 💜🤗

[Faith-and-Hope]

So agreed .... ❣️

@CheerBear @Teej

[CheerBear]

I turned very teary reading your post @Teej. Thank you so much. I'm hurting in a huge way with big mum guilt and can't see much of any good at the moment, but I really appreciated reading what you wrote. You have such warmth and kindness.

Your purple flower is beautiful. And yep, same album issue.

[Teej]

Just been trouble shooting. Not sure if this will work for you but I just made my flowers album public instead of hidden to see if that changed anything @CheerBear. I can now access my full album but there is a few strays that don’t show up in my profile albums when I look. At least it’s a step in the right direction. 

First time I can post this from an album. 

[Teej]

Writing at the same time @CheerBear...you can tell my brain is in overdrive with problem solving :face_with_rolling_eyes:. I’m glad it helped. It is all true and I hope you can find belief in it too. To tell the truth it’s only just this year that I have any confidence to write stuff as a mum and that’s because I’m at the other end and see the light. Trust your instincts, they are good 👍🏻💜🤗😘

[CheerBear]

I think my confidence has been shaken (shattered, obliterated, vanished maybe) with the muddle middle seems to be in @Teej. It's really coming out now and it's tough and ugly. We started the process of referrals etc and support will come, but big ouch right now. Between kids and parents, I'm feeling very, very 😞😔

It's great that you have come out the other end. I can imagine you would have had lots of times where all kinds of yuck feelings came out. Sometimes I can't see an end to it all and I get stuck in the chaos. It helps to hear and be reminded that it isn't always going to be like this.

If you find a solution with the album issue I'd love to hear. I'm looking forward to playing with albums here when I can.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Mega hugs @CheerBear ,..,,

🤗😔🤗😔🤗😔🤗😔🤗😔🤗😔🤗😔 ..... 💐💐💐💕

As yuck and ugly as it is, I am celebrating for you that it has been caught, and it has been caught early ...... and there is support ..... and there will be learning and healing that will make things better in life going forwards.  

There will I’ll be learning about health, and emotional health, and learning to channel hurts and insecurities into positive channels instead of ones that cause you harm, and there will be learning of strategies and coping skills that will carry forward into adulthood as lessons from the past ......

Take a deep breath, dear @CheerBear ..... and swim, knowing that you have achieved that early detection and support and change, and it was not in any way your fault or something you missed ......

We have interacted with specialists with their eyes wide shut, and there is a boundary that says mine is an adult and entitled to self-determine something that they are not recognising for what it is ......

I walk with you.  You don’t need to get your brace on.  It’s there, and it leaks out under pressure ..... and it sits under fruit trees drinking tea to recover its strength when it needs to ..... and then it braves on ......

💜💐💕💜💐💕💜💐💕💜

[CheerBear]

I had a very lumpy throat and leaky eyes after reading your post @Faith-and-Hope.

I'm so scared. If it is what it looks to be, I don't think it's been caught early going by what our GP has said, but I am glad it's been caught as it sounds like it gets missed in people this little often. The guilt... so, so bad 🙁💔

I've thought of you lots this week. Just the uncovering of it in the slightest way (as far as little knows) has big time triggered huge resistance and pushing back. It is like there is some kind of intense something inside them and the tiniest touch on it causes a mighty explosion. I'm feeling so far out of my depth with what is coming up and out. From the very little I've seen so far, I can only imagine what you must have experienced for so long 😔

I am cleaning (scrubbing walls and floors), part for a house inspection and part because it's one of my best coping strategies. It's something I can do and do well, which right now feels like there isn't enough of. It's classic avoidance but at least it is productive in a way. I have a terrible need to do and do and do (something, anything) when I become stressed and overwhelmed, but am wearing myself out with it now. I stopped, made a cup of tea and am sitting under a lemon tree taking a moment after reading your message.

Thank you so much for your support Faith-and-Hope, and for being you. It feels less scary knowing there are people who get it.

Time to brave on again ❤