Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please

[Former-Member]

Why does he treat me like a piece of dirt? I know he works shift work and his lack of quality sleep affects him. But he gets so mean. And does not believe he even is.

The Lord is my refuge in Him I put my trust. Trying to hold on to what He says.. If I hide in Him..Because He will never harm me. He is my all and all. He is the treasure I seek. Husband is no more important then me. I can hold my head up high..i am God's child and He has me.

I am going to walk out this bedroom now. You are my strength in times of trouble and I will put my trust in me. 

I forgive this man, that hurts me. I forgive him father..i dont want to hold onto bitterness, I hate that feeling. Thankyou that you love me. 

[Former-Member]

Hey @Former-Member, it sounds like you've been through something really upsetting just now. I'm so glad you have your faith to draw on for strength and love when you are struggling. I understand this is the worry room, but you mentioned someone getting really mean. I just wanted you to know if this behaviour really concerns you or makes you feel unsafe you can call 1800 RESPECT for support and advice. Sitting with you 🌻

[Former-Member]

Gosh feeling incredibly sad. Trying to get through today. 

[Former-Member]

Hi @Former-Member 

I noticed your post and am just checking in with you although it is a no response thread.. Incredible sadness sounds so hard Peggy. I wish you every strength in getting through it and hope you are able to get some support both here on the forums and off the forums. 

Take good care this evening

Whitehawk

Moderator

[Former-Member]

Staring in the mirror not liking what I see at all. Thinking to myself if I leave this marriage who would ever look sideways at me. Before you all jump on another thread to tell me how wonderful, caring ect you have to get to know me to see that side of me and with how shallow society is today I don't think anyone would approch me. This makes me sad because I have never been alone and never wanted to be, I have always seen myself with a partner. Even though my life has been rough to say the least, I believe in love and I am starting to think that is a mistake. I have been labeled a hopeless romantic and it never worried me till now, maybe there is another disfuction in my brain. I don't know what I am doing anymore, I have never known who I am. I have always taken on the likes and the hates of the partner I was with at the time. Now I am being asked who I am, what do I like and what do I want out of life and thankful my counsellor is understanding and doesn't question my response when I say I have no idea. I have come arcoss people in my life who question how childhood trauma can still be impacting my adult life, aren't you over it yet!! These question real impact my mental health as I feel like I am failing in all aspects of life and this just increases the feelings. 

Sorry this rant is all over the place and most likely does not make any sense at all. I am switching all the time again and it makes it hard to concerate on what I am doing.

[greenpea]

When I was a teenager I discovered the novel Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte. I loved it the passion and strength and darkness of her work  I have always wanted a Heathcliffe and when I was sick with my mental illness it was my Heathcliffe. Now my mental illness is controlled by medication I no longer have him he is gone and I am alone.

[Snowie]

I want to tell H I sh today but he will be angry with me. Angry I didn't call him before I did it,angry that I haven't told him and angry that I didn't try anything else. He has a hard time dealing with my mi and I feel like it is my fault. It is exhausting being in my head sometimes.

[Hope9]

Im tired of the same thing day in and day out I want to enjoy my life and not just sit in misery. I want to claw my way out of this hell but what do I have waiting. Im frustrated at myself and the world and just tired of the mundane existance. No one talks to me no one calls me thank god for my partner because i feel like my family just couldnt really care less at the moment. Im just a blight a stain on their existance that they couldn't be bothered to check in on i just exist. Im hungry for life but life doesnt offer me much.

[Former-Member]

I am trying to not take this personally. And maybe everything I am feeling and believing is not true. I made dinner for hubby. I was already sitting down eating mine. He picked up his plate and went into another room to eat. Stabs of pain washed over me. Rejection. Why does he do this to me so often. I cannot even be bothered to cry about it. But the whole thing makes me so very sad. He did not say one word to me, just went to another room to eat. 

[Teej]

I am so tired, tired of being tired. Feeling defeated and really insecure about a future from here. Just now I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel although I know that I'll find a glimpse of it again at some point. Scared and venting.