Support for Flowerlove22

[Appleblossom]

Dear @Sunnyside226 

You don't need to apologise. Saturday was more shit and suicidal for me. Today was much better. 

It is hard doing the visiting to graves, but it is a beautiful way to honour your mother. I have spent a lot of time visiting graves since I was a kid. It is often healthier to do it and acknowledge our losses, than be in denial. I also realised that sometimes my suicidality is about wanting to be with them. 

Gently Bently 

Find your own path 

Apple 🍎 

[Sunnyside226]

Honestly @Appleblossom   I just want to be with her.  I've been suicidal all afternoon been in shit mood all day  

Sometimes I can't do life without her  

Seeing her today made it worse.   

Ill have my path one day 

Thanks  @Appleblossom  

[Appleblossom]

Grief can be very raw.  @Sunnyside226  It's a sign of your love. Tears are healthy and cleansing for the soul.

I don't visit my 2 graves as often any more. Maybe once per year. I find other ways of talking to my dead people and keeping a soul connection with them 

[Sunnyside226]

That's why I only go when I can I know my dad and mum are dead     I never want to accept that.  

Dad's death  was my fault.  I didn't answer his phone call. 

Seeing them both today was hard, I never thought I'll never have a parent again, 

I'm sitting looking at the Stars.   Mum is with me  

@Appleblossom  

I just wanna be alone and feel the hurt   not seeing them again 

I'll later or tomorrow sorry  

[rav3n]

hey @Sunnyside226 i'm just going to send you a quick check-in email 💙

[Sunnyside226]

@rav3n    I didn't say I was doing anything? 😭.     

I didn't I was doing anything??  

Do I have  need  a check in?     

@moderator I'm sorry.   I was talking about my mum and dad    

[Sunnyside226]

I seriously am stupid 😠 dumb  

[rav3n]

you're not in any trouble!! @Sunnyside226 please don't stress, i just sent an email so we can chat more privately and see if there's any way we can help. 💙

[ArraDreaming]

You literally said you were suicidal that’s why your being emailed

[Sunnyside226]

@rav3n     I want to cry   

Rav3n I don't want to lose our friendship I'm sorry I'm stupid I'll shut up    check in tomorrow. I can't do this tonight please.    I want to be alone I want to be alone with my mum