Just checking in.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Not easy, but hopefully will help you process done if the past stuff too @Sans911 ..... with some self-compassion in there somewhere.  When we are trying to survive difficult circumstances we only know to respond with the resources to hand, and the wounded feelings we are experiencing at the time ..... and we all do that.  

Please be gentle with yourself ..... and wishing you a good assignment outcome ......

Sitting here with you 💜

[Zoe7]

Once you mentioned the topic @Sans911 I figured it has been really hard for you but you are doing really well to work through it also - especially with it bringing up so much for you. It may even be cathartic to eventually get it done - one more goal kicked and under difficult circumstances ...and that is a positive step forward for you. 

[Sans911]

I don't think it will cathartic @Zoe7. There's far too much damage done to me by the healthcare system. What will bring some closure is when I complain about the two staff who damaged me the most. And also working/volunteering in suicide prevention is helping when I eventually encourage others to be more understanding, show empathy and respect. It is a long road to go through, as you well know.

[Zoe7]

Yes it is a ling road @Sans911 and one that we will always be on. We can get to the stage where it is less prominent in our thinking but the undertones are always there. It is about working out how we best deal with it all and still move forward in a meaningful way. Everything that you are doing is working towards that. That does not mean there will not be bumps (and sometimes sink holes) on that road but we do dust ourselves off the best we can and continue along that journey. You are a great example to the rest of us of exactly that  Hon - as tough as it gets for you sometimes you continue to do your volunteering work, your study and even you wonderful support of people here - and that is all something to celebrate 

[Teej]

I have a feeling I owe @CheerBear one of these....an I’m sorry. I’ve been thinking about my last post to you and I know missed validating some pretty huge feelings around what you are experiencing and they need to be validated. 

I hope you feel less blue soon.

@Sans911 i know you don’t feel it at the moment but I wanted to ditto what @Zoe7 said. Like you I’ve messed up pretty big with some stuff and been totally humiliated by mh professionals in the past. I can understand that digging up this stuff through study would sometimes cut deep.  Take care of you. It’s hard and messy, maybe when you can’t feel any of the good re read @Zoe7 last line, you may not feel it but it is something to be proud of. 

[Zoe7]

Just wrapping up for the night here before bed so goodnight @Teej @Sans911 @CheerBear and all passing through 

[Teej]

Good night @Zoe7 Good luck for tomorrow 💜🤗😘🍀💐

[Zoe7]

Thanks Hon - on both fronts @Teej Hope you have a resonable day at least tomorrow too. Time to take Toby outside now and then head to bed 

[Sans911]

Goodnight sweet @Zoe7 ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[CheerBear]

👋 all

@Teej you have nothing to be sorry for. I really appreciate your support. You get and that helps lots. Hope today is being kind ❤