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[oceangirl]

I have to write about my expereince of my mum being unwell for me growing up and her being on life support. I am so struggling to write about this. I am not sure how to get started or actually what to write about. I know the task sounds easy but I am finding it quite diffcult & challenging because atm it all seems too hard for me.

I am lacking motivation and how I am going to work myself through this. I tend to get anxious for no apprent reason, and also when my mum is unwell too, and I do have PTSD from going through this- I still have quite vivid memories of what happen, and I get flashbacks and have nightmares about this. But I do try to push on the best way I can, and I do know from an earlier age I have always tried to take care of my mum. I had a lot of pressure from a young age.

[Former-Member]

I'm thinking of you @oceangirl 

i can't help you with this one as it will be too close to home for both of us. Sending hugs and hope you get the support you need for this one.

💜🤗💐😘

[oceangirl]

Thanks @Former-Member .

Sorry I hope it has not triggered you in anyway.

[Former-Member]

Not at all @oceangirl but I know it would get difficult. I just wanted you to know I'm here💜🤗

[Appleblossom]

Hi @oceangirl

Our whole being is threatened by a mother's serious illness.  Then goes the stress of managing ourselves while we manage to help our mother. It would be hard wired and difficult to shift.  Then comes the problem of feeling selfish in "mentioning" a situation that was so threatening to a loved one.  Somehow we lose our voice and our sense of legitimacy in speaking about our own genuine needs.  

It makes sense that it is hard to even start to "talk" or "write about". You would have tried to protect your mother from knowing about your anxiety because you knew that she was too sick.

Gentleigh Bentleigh @oceangirl The only way through this is to keep keeping on as you.  

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @oceangirl .... 💕

I have just come across this thread.

Have you managed to do your assignment ?

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[Faith-and-Hope]

@oceangirl .... I might be able to give you some tools ....

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[Former-Member]

Hi @oceangirl ❤️️🌹

It is a lot a pressure for a young child to handle and I can understand your anxiety. Was your mothers ill health/life support due to unnatural means?  Regardless, that is not an easy topic to write about. Very traumatising.  Are you truly comfortable with doing this? Does it serve a sense of release for you helping to let it go? 

If you are comfortable just let the emotions flow onto paper that which lays heavily on your heart. If too overwhelming perhaps write it in stages, one bit at a time. Do what feels right for you as that is what is therapeutic. Wishing you healing my friend. Thinking of you 💕xx