Am Not Coping

[Former-Member]

Hi dear @Zoe7

Glad to hear that your psych session went well today. Sounds like you covered a lot of ground.  I'm also pleased that talking to her has helped you sort through some of the more 'tricky' feelings around your friend.  

Sorry to hear that you still have no word on where or who you will be teaching.  Being a super organised person myself, I know how much that rankles - the not knowing, the not being able to prepare adequately. The need to be organised and super prepared is often a trait that those of us with PTSD develop, even if its not an inborn characteristic. Perhaps you can think of it this time as a little reminder that, too often, you take on much more than you need to, or indeed should. Dont allow your work to take over and dictate your life.

Its good that all your MH team are on the same page with your progress and intent to focus on the here and now, and moving forward from there.

I've read that you've had a couple of days of feeling unmotivated and 'blah'.  Those days happen.  But despite that, you are still getting through those days and still achieving things even on your worst days.  I'm happy to hear that the psych is advising not to increase the night meds, and to instead allow the routine of work to hopefully help with sleep patterns again.

Enjoy your swim this afternoon, another routine which is important to get back into. 

Thanks for your well wishes to all those of us who follow you on this thread. I will try to post a bit of an update on my own thread later, rather than clutter up yours. 😊  Hi everyone here - @Faith-and-Hope@CheerBear@Former-Member@Shaz51@BlueBay@Sam3@Sans911@outlander@Appleblossom@TAB@Maggie and others - I too wish you all a day which provides at least occasional glimpses of light and happiness.

Sherry 💕⭐🌺

[Zoe7]

Thanks @Former-Member but not my thread - just one I started and post on most often - I would like to think that anyone who wishes to can post here incuding yourself but I also understand you want to keep updates altogether on the one thread also.

It is frustrating with work but as I said there is nothing I can do until they have sorted it out with the Principals of whatever schools they have contacted. I do hope the school I end up going to is close to home. Hopefully that will help me to be home early and be able to do things that I enjoy that aren't work related.

I just realised that the Hurricanes game starts at 4pm so I won't be going to the pool today - might go tomorrow after DBT and pdoc as I have an early morning GP appointment. I have definitely pencilled in Thursday to go though and hoping I know something about work by then too.

[Sam3]

Hello @Teej@Zoe7@Former-Member@Appleblossom@MDT

I’m on lunch break so briefly wanted to say I really hope your day is improving @MDT Decided to email boss re redundancy notification & payment- the silence is deafening. Also deafening silence from the second interview from Friday re job offer. I’m delaying calling back 1st interview person who left message as don’t know about the other one which assured me there would be an email offer of employment today. Bit emotive seeing child no 2 have his final ‘back to school’ & loved going into classroom of my 9yo. @Zoe7 you’ve left a post which I’ll read later but sounds like your day is better than yesterday. Bye for now 👋

[Owlunar]

Hi @Zoe7

Uncertainty about important issues in our lives does make it difficult to prepare all manner of things - whether is actually preparation of classes or just what we feel comfortable about in our hearts and minds - it seems to me that although it's about different issues entirely we both have things going on that could make a major difference and this has to be hard to cope with - 

It is for me - I feel as if we are swinging along together here

You had a positive session with your therapist - you have done a lot over the summer - esp working in your garage and making it weather proof - you will be able to work there in anything but extreme weather which is really good. Also you have made tremendous efforts in your life - you really have - it is very encouraging to read about it

We all miss @Faith-and-Hope - I will be glad when she is back too - she does have a really calming presence for me - for many of us I am sure - you too

It will be great to know what classes you will be taking and when it starts - I would have imagined that they would have all of that prepared by this stage in the school holidays - but of course - not the case - I think school goes back this week in Victoria - yesterday was a public holiday and I don't think the kids are back today - I don't know when they go back in Tassie - I can look that up

I am still trying to make my mind up about my next holiday which will be a whole week - Lakes Entrance would be great - I can organise that without the agent - but there are fires in Gippsland - the weather ratings are very high there and probably I will be more likely to go to Hobart

At Wrest Point I can walk for ages and still be on the complex - and I get breakfast in my room - always welcome that - and even get icecream in the middle of the night if I choose - 24 hour restaurants there - and walking along beside the estuary - 

How are the bush fires there atm - I know they will still be burning in deep valleys - this I have seen from the air before now - but I am caught between holiday choices right now - perhaps I should go to the moon - 

Anyway - I still need that coffee - I had better have a cup of coffee and something to eat before I go and see the doctor

All the best Zoe

Dec

[MDT]

Thanks @Zoe7 @Sam3

A whole mess this morning about the visa application. Whole heap of last minute crap they failed to do for me.. Why pay the people money if they don't do the job properly. Anyways. That's all done. Thank God.
Having a late lunch now.
Still feel crap from the morning but I guess it's progress ahead in the right direction.

I'm getting a bit depressed lately. Just about all of this. Idk why... MH could be worse I guess but then could be better.

[MDT]

@Zoe7 I had a read of your post. Sounds to me like you are continuing to kick goals. And plenty of them too.
I am really happy for you. You've been doing a lot. You are a good role model for many of us here on forum land.

You have a right mind about what's going in around you. Your psych is helping and you are making some strides. You mentioned your man friend. 😛
Thats even better. Understandable that you are trying to navigate the emotions. That can be like steering a ship through a ravine. But you are managing. This is what matters.

🚩 😎 🐶📣 @Zoe7

[MDT]

Good move on the email, @Sam3

Also I know the deafening silence too. Not hearing back is a bum

[Zoe7]

For all following along...

Had a call from HR - they had identified a school but it was to be full-time from the beginning of the year and on a grade 1/2 - neither of which was ideal for me so they are going to continue looking. At least I know that they are doing the work and I will hear when they have it sorted. It is not exactly the news that I wanted but it does mean that they are making it a priority nd trying to work with me to make it easier to start. They are now looking for 4 days a week and on an upper primary grade (3-6). At least that way I know I have taught those grades before and can hit the start of the term on my feet rather than having to begin right at the start of learning a new curriculum level as well as getting used to a new school.

[Zoe7]

@Sam3 I hope you get some answers in regards to your work situation today Hon. This waiting is not good for us.

@MDT I am glad the Visa stuff is sorted now despite the issues you had to deal with. You are right that you pay people to deal eith this stuff and that is what they should be doing 

@Owlunar The weather is beautiful in Hobart at the moment but there is still a lot of smoke in the air from the fires. None of them in the centre of Tassie or further down south are under control and alerts are still in place for those areas. The wind is not helping but hoping for rain on Thursday to help. 

[Snowie]

At least it is a start @Zoe7 and they are looking. Fingers and toes crossed something comes through soon.